I celebrated my three month anniversary since the launching of The B Werd at the beginning of this month. Not because three months is a significant amount of time, but because I like to celebrate even the smallest accomplishments. I think 90 days is plenty of time to get a good feel for what you’ve gotten yourself into and let me be clear, I’ve gone through a wave of emotions since then regarding the brand that I’m building and how much work and time it really takes. I’ve never been afraid of hard work. In fact, I’m one of those people who doesn’t feel like they’re doing enough if they’re not on the run and their plate isn’t slightly overflowing. I find a strange satisfaction in getting things done.
The main reason why I was so hesitant (AKA why I dragged my feet for a year) in starting The B Werd was because I’m afraid of commitment. There…. I said it. In many aspects, not just aspirations and relationships. I’ve never even considered coloring my hair because I can’t commit to that type of change. I’m not comfortable half assing anything; and that’s a gift and a curse. While I work hard and take things that I’m committed to seriously, if I can’t commit to them I don’t deal with them at all. Instead of jumping into things and trying them, I’m very selective with what I pursue. I won’t play unless I know that I will win and if there’s a chance I might not, I don’t want to play. So committing to this site and been… Interesting.
More than anything, you guys have been immeasurably supportive and that in itself lets me know that I’m more than capable of keeping this thing going. The comments, messages, and emails I receive from all of you truly reaffirms that I’m doing exactly what I’m meant to. However, I want to keep it real with y’all; when people ask me how blogging is going, my first thought is “it is such a force!“. Crazy right?
When I say blogging is a force, what I mean is that I’ve never had to force myself to stay up past my bedtime to make sure I have content ready to go for the next day. I’ve never had to force myself to get dressed and out of the house so that I can have Style Guide photos to post or force my family and friends to stop whatever they’re enjoying to take my photo. I’ve never had to force myself to post so consistently on Instagram or stage photos of my arm holding a cup of coffee to show off a bracelet all for brand promotion. A complete force. But I do realize now it comes with the territory.
Working a corporate job in PR doesn’t always necessarily allow me a 9-5, 8 hour a day schedule. Some mornings I have a 7 a.m. breakfast and some evenings I have events that last until 10 p.m. Other nights I’ll have one too many glasses of wine at happy hour to balance it all and will knock out before I can even open my laptop. Just being honest… So squeezing in scheduling, editing, content creation and photos isn’t easy. I tip my hat to all bloggers. It looks effortless but it’s far from it.
People have consistently told me that I’ve inspired them to start the blog that they’ve been thinking about, and that’s really awesome. You should. I want to encourage you to take the first step to begin anything you’ve been wanting to pursue, because you can and if you really want to, you will! But please note, you will have to force yourself to do a lot of things that you don’t feel like or want to, and you will thank yourself that you did. What I’ve found is, accomplishments come with a lot of forced actions, never gracefully. Force yourself to make those uncomfortable phone calls, force yourself to reach out to people about opportunities you’d like to pursue or great ideas you have, even if you may not get a reply. Force yourself to stick to the schedule you set when you want to sleep an extra hour. Force it until you’re a force that can’t be reckoned with.